Ups and Downs

Life is funny because it has many ups and downs. I thought I was really good friends with someone and it turns out we aren't friends at all. This is a down but it also has an upside to it. I made it through what happened between us clean and sober. Instead of picking up I talked with people which is a major step in my mind. I also may be starting a relationship with a guy. He is so funny and makes me laugh every time we talk. I am scared though because am I ready to date again. I have had my heart broke severly by the last couple of guys that I dated (they were either physically abusive or mentally). He seems to be an awesome guy just nervous about it. I leave in 5 weeks and 3 days for utah (after today). I am so excited for the vacation. My grandma (who i like [i have one i don't]) turns 80 on Saturday so I am really excited about that. I am helping my mom cook dinner for the family for her birthday and the next day the church she attends is throwing her a surprise party. I also go this weekend to see the camp which I am applying for so I am excited about that. I have rock group tomorrow so they will keep me on my feet. They did really well on Sunday at church. They were loud and understandable (plus they put me on the spot and it helped me too).