Isn't it funny

So i've been thinking a lot this morning about one major decision that is affecting my life right now. I keep trying to put off making this decision because maybe deep down i am just unwilling to see that it is probably the best decision for me. Part of me says its what i need but the other half says i can do this and don't need help. I hate asking for help because i'm the one that is supposed to be strong and be there for everyone else. Life sucks sometimes and its these times that I wish i could easily ask for help but i can't. I am so struggling and hurting inside that i want to scream but i can't do that.....