So lately my friend Nate has got me listening to something other than country and I actually like it. There has been this song on the radio and I wasn't sure what it was called. It's call Sober by Pink. Here are the words:
"I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at 4'oclock in the morning
'Cos I'm the only one you know in the world that won'te be home.
Aahh the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oohh, I am finding
That's not the way I want my story to end
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like protections
How do I feel this good sober?
I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence
Cryin scares me cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
I won't remember, save your breath, 'cos what's the use?
Aahh, the night/dawn is calling?
And it whispers to me softy come to and play
Aahh, I am falling
And if I let myself go I'm the only one to blame
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?
I'm coming down, coming down, coming down
Spinning 'round, spinning 'round, spinning 'round
Looking for myself---SOBER
When it's good, then its good, it's so good till it goes bad
Till you're trying to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again
Broken down in agony just tryna find a fit
Oooo Oooo
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?
Oooo Oooo
I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
How do I feel this good sober?
Will I ever feel this good sober?
Te me, No no no no no pain
How do I feel this good sober?
Just recently I think this song fits me to a t. I have been really struggling with my soberity. I hate pain and don't want to feel any and so basically have been staying high and or drunk just so I don't have to feel. I think back to July of 2007 until Feb of 2008. I had 6 months of being clean there and it was so freeing and I was so happy but then I got caught back up in the lifestyle. Recently I have known 2 people who have died (in the last 2 weeks) from drugs and alcohol, one that got sent to prison due to drugs, and 2 that are waiting to see what their punnishments are for drug related things. It really has caused me to think about what I am doing. I don't ever want to go to prison because to be honest living in my addiction is enough of a prison for me. It keeps me from letting people be around me and takes me away from people. I am hoping what is going to happen soon will help me out and help me get my life straightened out and repair damage i have done.
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