Been a rough week

Wow I am so glad it's friday and that after today I have two days to regroup until I have to lead on Monday. It's been a really rough few days and I have found that life truely is a gift and is meant to be lived. On Tues a neighbor that lived two doors up passed away in his sleep in the early morning. I really thought a lot of this elderly neighbor and loved him. It's been hard to go to his house and not see him there. He moved into my old apt when I moved out and ended up marrying my neighbor who I was close with. When I moved back to my old apt complex they ended up moving 2 doors up from me. They are like my grandparents always looking out for me and if I didn't come home he wanted to know where I was and what I was doing. He's been sick for awhile so I'm glad he isn't in pain. My heart is breaking knowing that I am saying goodbye but I know it's only for awhile. I've learned that I can't give up even though I want toooo. I would give anything right now not to feel this pain but can't turn back to my recovery.