So this time 31 years ago

So today marks my family's first start on the road of becoming a family. My mom said at 9:00am they were at the courthouse and she heard me cry and she was happy when she got to hold me for the first time. She also said that they had a lot of visitors that first day because I was the answer to so many prayers from many different people. My parents had tried for 8 years to have a child and then they got the call on a monday the 14th of May (1979) and asked if they wanted a baby and my mom said yes and they were told to come get me on friday 18th of May. I'm so grateful for my birthmother's unselfish decision to give me a chance at having a family who would love and support me. I'm grateful for my adoptive family too.

So this time 31 years ago

Seems like a weird title to put on this post but it fits. This time 31 years ago my parents had just gotten a phone call which gave them a total of basically 4 days to get everything they needed together for a 4 week old baby girl (me). I've been thinking a lot of what makes a mother lately. And I found this poem so I thought I would share.

Legacy of an Adopted Child
Once there were two women who never knew each other
One you do not remember, the other you call Mother
Two different lives shaped to make your one
One became your guiding star, the other became your sun
The first one gave you life, and the second taught you to live it
The first gave you a need for love, the second was there to give it
One gave you a nationality, the other gave you a name
One gave you a talent, the other gave you aim
One gave you emotions, the other calmed your fears
One saw your first sweet smile, the other dried your tears
One made an adoption plan, that was all she could do
The other prayed for a child, and God led her straight to you
Now, which of these two women, Are you a product of?
Both my darling, Both, just different types of love.
Author Unknown

I'm so grateful that my birthmother placed me for adoption and that I ended up with the family I ended up with. I'm truely grateful for my family and they are an awesome party of my life. And to answer my thought above what makes a mother. This is my defination this year. A mother is someone who has ever been pregnant, gave birth to a child, choose the rocky path of placing a baby up for adoption, choosing to adopt, lost a child, and also those that impact a child's life.

Been a rough week

Wow I am so glad it's friday and that after today I have two days to regroup until I have to lead on Monday. It's been a really rough few days and I have found that life truely is a gift and is meant to be lived. On Tues a neighbor that lived two doors up passed away in his sleep in the early morning. I really thought a lot of this elderly neighbor and loved him. It's been hard to go to his house and not see him there. He moved into my old apt when I moved out and ended up marrying my neighbor who I was close with. When I moved back to my old apt complex they ended up moving 2 doors up from me. They are like my grandparents always looking out for me and if I didn't come home he wanted to know where I was and what I was doing. He's been sick for awhile so I'm glad he isn't in pain. My heart is breaking knowing that I am saying goodbye but I know it's only for awhile. I've learned that I can't give up even though I want toooo. I would give anything right now not to feel this pain but can't turn back to my recovery.