Snow....Snow...and more Snow.....

YUCK so for the past week we have had major snow...... and it looks as if tomorrow there will no school which kind of sucks cause I made the ROCK group a treat bag for Valentines day but hey I can give them to them next week. I've had a ton of time to do thinking the last few days and I'm so excited for Paul to come home from Flordia.... It's been a long long 6 weeks. It's funny how my mom asked about how I felt about Paul and if I thought there was a future together. A few months ago NO I didn't feel or think that there would be a future with him but he has changed a lot since September and those feelings have resurfaced of love for him and I can't wait to do more when he gets back. He comes home Valentines day which is exciting because I didn't think he was coming back until the 17th. It will be great to see him and he says he has something to ask me when he gets home. Who knows..... Life is funny. So my offical countdown is 3 days until Friday which means I will have 11 months sober and clean. This has been the hardest time of my life but the most fullfilling time too. I've learned so much and continue to learn as time goes by. If even a couple months ago if you would have asked me if soberity was worth it I would have laughed and said heck no but one thing I have learned is how worth it is. I've gained so much in recovery. The biggest thing that I have gotten is the trust of my family and friends. I mean look at the stuff I am attempting to do that a year ago who would have though was possible. I successfully helped run a daycamp (and am going to do it again this summer), I am in the process of learning to be an awesome youth leader, I have some more self confidence and am working on building it, and I could list more and more but that is getting into pride (one of the things I am learning to let go of). My relationship with God has really changed this year too....... I am so grateful for those small blessings in my life that he gives me daily. I overheard this last night at the AA meeting I was at. We were talking about Step 2 which is Came to believe that a power greater than yourself could restore you to sanity. I hear one guy asked did you wake up this morning and another guy answered yeah i did. The first guy said there's your proof that there is a power that is greater than yourself....... Really made me think and I agree every morning when I wake up there is something that provokes me to get up and live a life (a life now that I am grateful of to call a life and share with others).