It's been a rough week but I'm still here

Well lets see the big thing that happened is Paul and I broke up. I choose to break up with Paul because after much time, energy, and input from other people decided that I wasn't ready for a relationship with anyone and before things became too serious such as an engagement I decided to call things off for now. He wasn't very happy and I'm grateful I did it in a public place because I think it could have turned physical if I hadn't done it in public. Life is still good despite trying to sort stuff out. I have 6 months now! Talk about exciting. It's been awhile since I have had that much time in. I finished my aftercare group today and now I'm just down to individual counseling and after a couple months will be done. I'm excited because ROCK group starts next week!!!!!!

My thoughts on life this past few days

So I've decided that life is pretty awesome despite the adversity that creeps in. It's when adversity creeps in that you truly find out how strong you are. This past week has been hard and I am in the process of making a major decision. It's hard because it involves Paul and my life together and am I really ready to take that next step. I have some real challenges this week past and I have come out successful thankfully and I owe that to God because I know if i do my part and trust in him things will work out.

New moto for life going into ROCK group

Alright it's Rock group countdown time. I have just under 3 weeks to have it ready to run. I am beyond nervous about this and as the pastor said I'm not alone she will be there. It's different though going from the helper this year to the leader. So today I was listening to music and I hear the song from the sound of music "I Have Confidence." This song is awesome and I just need to remember to have confidence in myself and things will go well. Favorite line from the song is "It tells me all I trust I lead my heart to All I trust becomes my own I have confidence in confidence alone. I have confidence in confidence alone Besides which you see I have confidence in me!". This is my new moto as I tackle the path which is put out in front of me just not with ROCK group but with life in general.

It's been a very busy week or so

So last week the family went to Seneca Lake to celebrate my grandparents 60th wedding anniversary! Wow that's a long time. I only went down for a couple of days. It was fun but tirering. I went swimming, tubing, ate lots of yummy food, and hung out with family. I came home on saturday and actually just laid around and took a me day. I went to church then sunday and heard basically a sermon on moral values (not really what I wanted to hear since i'm working on step 4). Rock group starts again in 3 weeks and I'm excited for the challenge that lays ahead of me. I've never led a group (but I'm leading it with help so that helps). It will be a great adventure watching the kids grow and change in their love of Christ. It will also change me in more ways then I can imagine.