Wow this will be basically a mind dump from daycamp and life

Wow i didn't realize that I hadn't posted on daycamp at all this week. So basically I am just going to give you a run down of life and of camp in one. I am still dating Paul. He makes me smile and laugh (this is a good thing). I really like him (i can't say love yet but hey that's ok). I am falling more that way though. Hard to believe I have known him for a year and a half. It feels right for a change. Hard to think this way but it's awesome. Camp monday went well. They were pretty wild but I think it was just the kids after being gone all weekend. Monday night went to an awesome meeting and found a sponsor. So now the real work comes in with my recovery. Working the 12 steps. Seems at times overwhealming but it will be ok. Tues went well. The kids did very well with music and then played for a little bit. After that they learned some Spanish. They were cute. I went last night to the Orrville Parade and it was a good parade. I went with my friend and her two kids. Her little girl was scared of the fire trucks and so i held her behind in the grass. I can't wait one day to have a little girl or boy to raise of my own. I know it will be on god's time not mine though. Today was the worst day in camp. One of my little guys told me he wanted to kill me. Just shocked me more than anything. None of the kids would really listen and so it made the day worse. Went to a great meeting and then hung out with my friend which helped a lot.