Busy week last week....

So last week was Camp E.D.G.E. {Explore and Discover God Everywhere} (aka vacation bible school) at the Methodist Church. I helped with the kids who had just finished kindergarten and then ones who just finished 1st grade (i had roughly 10 kids each night in my group) and had a blast with them. It was cool because I got to see some of the kids from daycamp. That kept me pretty busy all week and last Tues I had another nerve block that didn't work and now tomorrow have to have an epidural for pain which i'm not looking forward too. I am hoping that it works. Life is good and i am still loving dating Paul in fact I guess I could say I am in love with him. He is such a caring and kind guy who always wants to make sure I am good and things are good. Life is enjoyable just hetic i guess. I'm learning a lot about myself and about who I am lately and I am not quite there but i am begining to maybe just maybe starting to like the person I am.

So so so .........

I am kind of in a blah mood tonight. Life is good don't get me wrong. I'm still on the up and up.... I started helping monday with Camp EDGE (explore and discover god everywhere) at the Methodist church where I will run rock group in the fall....... I am kind of struggling with it but loving it just the same. I had another nerve block done and low and behold it didn't work........ I am still enjoying my time dating Paul and I slowly am moving from the like stage to the love stage. I feel like part of me is missing when he isn't around.....

Mind dump on daycamp and life

Alright so i'll wrap up the last two days of camp and then blog about life. So yesterday we ate breakfast and then the kids either played games with Susie and me or kickball with Morgan and Helen. Yesterday was also Morgan's last day. I made her a scrap book page for helping us all summer when she didn't have to. Then after that we had a snack and then had acting class. I spent a lot of time after camp yesterday getting ready for today since today was the last day of camp. I made the kids all magnets with their names on it. So today I went to camp early and we set up. Fed them breakfast and then we played lots of games. From there they had art and crafts. They made a daycamp picture memory page. Then out to play on the playground. From there we broke open the pinati and then had pizza. Then Helen gave them certificates and I gave them the magnets. We took a group picture and then did a water ballon toss. Over all a very very good day.

Alright my mind dump on life in general. So the last four weeks have been intense and busy but I wouldn't change any of it. I have learned a great deal about patience and that is one thing I didn't have a lot of before and still really at times don't (ask people from today). I have grown in areas and have shown a few times this past month that I can overcome adversity when things look tough I just keep going. I am 2 days shy of hitting 4 months clean and sober. Haven't had that in a long time so it's pretty awesome. I am so very blessed to have Paul in my life. To have someone who likes me for me and through the good and the bad. He totally puts me at ease and I find I am slowly starting to put my guard down. I am also very blessed/grateful to have awesome friends and family in my life.

Last couple of days at camp

Wow the last 2 days has flown by. On Tues we had music. The kids sort of got into it and had fun. Then out to play. Then we came in and had cupcakes for Garret's birthday (well the kids did. I couldn't due to having a nerve block later in the day). We then went out and played with waterballons. Overall a very good day at camp. Today at camp we had a sacivenger hunt which was a lot of fun. From there we had a snack and then the kids either picked to play on the playground or play kickball (it was about half and half). It was a lot of fun today. I am really going to miss camp come friday but am grateful for the experience I have had doing it.

Life is moving fast

Wow part of my summer has flown by. Basically the last month (hummm wonder why could it be daycamp). I have really enjoyed camp and will truely miss it. I love the people I work with and the kids. Some of them just melt my heart. Today we made thank you card and one little girl gave me the one she made and made the kids sign. It truely was very touching. I hope that at times I have made a difference in some of these kids life just by being there for them every day. I am still dating Paul. It's a challenge balancing my life right now between work, dating, recovery, friends and family but i'm managing it. I love the fact that I have done this all without the use of anything to help me along. I will have 4 months on Sunday and am super excited about that. I do have to have a nerve block done tomorrow and am hoping that will take care of the pain in my knee. You would think I would take a week or so off after daycamp but I'm not. I have vacation bible school starting next monday for a week. I am so very grateful for all my many blessings that I have gotten and need to remember to always remember who helped me in all of it. I know I haven't done it alone and it has only been done through the grace and mercy of God. I wouldn't have had the experience of this summer with staying sober and clean and look forward to what the rest of the summer holds for me and the begining of fall.

An awesome day at daycamp.....

Today was a very awesome day at camp. It's hard to believe this is the last week of dayamp. I'm just going to post on daycamp in this post and then will just post about other things in life. So today we had breakfast and then made thank you cards for all the different people who took time away from their lives to come in and help the kids. I found with some of the kids we have to watch them with markers cause they write on the backs of shirts (thankfully it was a brother and sister who this was). After that we let them run loose on the playground and I took some pictures of them. Then we did races and all the kids had fun. We sent them home with lunch.

Wrap up from the week and a new pic

Well camp is over again this week. I love camp and its been a challenge but has well payed off. I will be glad next week when its over and done because I have stuff coming up soon after. In about two months ROCK group will start again and I'm actually running it. I am super excited about starting it. Also with dating it makes my life super busy. A pic of Paul and I will be at the end of the blog post. So yesterday in camp we ate breakfast and then played upset the fruitbasket. We didn't eliminate this time so it went better. From there we played heads up seven up. Then we went out and played red rover and then played on the playground equipment. From there we went and had snack and then the zoo came. Seth the little boy who told me Weds he wanted to kill me has basically warmed up to me and has become my friend.
Here's the pic of Paul and me:

Day four of camp this week

Man we have really lucked out weather wise this week. We have had rain off and on but thankfully every day have been able to be outside. The kids are having a blast and I tell you what I am being challenged this week especially the last couple of days by a couple of kids. I have learned extreme patience but I love it. So today the EMS came and the kids loved that. After that we played bingo for a while and then went out and played. The kids love to play and they like to play games too. It's been amazing to see these kids grow over the course of the 3 weeks we have had them. I love each one of them and next friday it will be hard to know camps over but at the same time it will be awesome to be done because after that vacation bible school will be. After vacation bible school I will have a month and a half to get ready for rock group.

Wow this will be basically a mind dump from daycamp and life

Wow i didn't realize that I hadn't posted on daycamp at all this week. So basically I am just going to give you a run down of life and of camp in one. I am still dating Paul. He makes me smile and laugh (this is a good thing). I really like him (i can't say love yet but hey that's ok). I am falling more that way though. Hard to believe I have known him for a year and a half. It feels right for a change. Hard to think this way but it's awesome. Camp monday went well. They were pretty wild but I think it was just the kids after being gone all weekend. Monday night went to an awesome meeting and found a sponsor. So now the real work comes in with my recovery. Working the 12 steps. Seems at times overwhealming but it will be ok. Tues went well. The kids did very well with music and then played for a little bit. After that they learned some Spanish. They were cute. I went last night to the Orrville Parade and it was a good parade. I went with my friend and her two kids. Her little girl was scared of the fire trucks and so i held her behind in the grass. I can't wait one day to have a little girl or boy to raise of my own. I know it will be on god's time not mine though. Today was the worst day in camp. One of my little guys told me he wanted to kill me. Just shocked me more than anything. None of the kids would really listen and so it made the day worse. Went to a great meeting and then hung out with my friend which helped a lot.