This has been weighing on my mind lately

So I am not on step 9 yet but when the time is right sometimes ammends need to be made sooner than later. So I know I have some occassional lurkers on here and since I no longer have their email I am hoping they are reading this. I just want you to know how sorry I am for the pain and upheaval I caused in your life. I am truely sorry from the bottom of my heart. I want you to know that I wasn't really myself when you met me and i know that doesn't matter. I am taking steps to make myself a better person and one day hope that you can forgive me for what I did. You guys are awesome people and again I am truely sorry. Now hopefully those people will read this blog and in time can forgive.