Despite a rough week life is still good

So this week has been a BIG challenge (and that is kind of an understatement) but it's all still good. Life is awesome beyond belief!! That's hard for me to say but I have learned I'm a lot stronger than I have been. It's been a busy week and yesterday I made a slide show for my sister's daycamp (it's over a half hour long and was fun to make). Still doing treatment and meetings. I am going over my 3rd step Monday night with my sponsor which means I will start step 4 which is the step I have never done. I tend to say hetic with it and don't do it and then eventually have to restart the steps yet again. Paul and I have had a rough week in our relationship but we are still together. I am just blessed with awesome people who truely care and love me and don't want to see me get hurt. Well all I can say is LIFE is AWESOME!

Looking at going back to school

So I've decided that maybe I need more to do in my life (for those that think i'm busy all the time....it's a bad idea when i'm not). I have a call into akron to see if I have enough credits to get a bach. degree in general studies. If I do i'm looking at going next fall (2010) to get a master's in youth ministry and substance abuse. I have a lot of work to do before them but i'm excited for the challenege.

So another big step in Paul's and my relationship

Ok not that I haven't always known I have great friends but today especially I found out how important my friends are too me. So when I started helping with the ROCK group I got a chance to get to know the pastor and discovered how much fun she is to work with. I have developed a good relationship with her. Well we were meeting about rock group stuff and other stuff and we were talking about what Paul and I need to do if we decide to get married. Well she said that at least we had to do 3 months of premartial counseling and then at the end of it if she thought we weren't ready then she would tell us and would tell us what we needed to do in order to get married and how long we had to wait. Well I talked with Paul and we decided to do the counseling now so that we can learn and grow together as a couple and hopefully learn to communicate better with each other. I am really scared of taking this next step but at the same time if this relationship is going to work it's what we need to do to grow.

Looking over the past 5 months

You know looking back over the past five months it's been rough going some of the time but in the end it's all been a blessing. I wish I could explain everything i have learned and gained during this time but there isn't enough space. I have overcome a lot in these last five months. I am a lot stronger than I thought I am and know that I can accomplish more than I ever thought I could. I look forward to the adverture of the next month and all that it brings!

It's been a few busy weeks but good weeks for the most part

So I did another VBS at the sister church to the one where I help with ROCK group with a beach theme. It was a lot of fun. I began doing nursery for the children too young to go to sunday school. So far it's just been a 9 month old and myself but i'm cool with that. I have a lot of fun with her. She plays and i play with her and then rock her to sleep so it's all good. I sang in church with my sister and that was a first ever. We sang a song called If the Savior Stood Beside Me and it went really well. Our voices blend very well together. I am still dating Paul and learning more every day why I am falling in love with him. I almost wonder if maybe this could be the one I deside to settle down with and move into the next phase of life. He is going this weekend to my dad's side family reunion so we will see. I celebrated my two "nieces" birthdays (they turn 2 and 4 at the end of the month but i'll be on vacation during their birthdays). It's been amazing to see them grown and learn. I also am getting ready tomorrow (Aug. 12) to celebrate 5 months. It's very very exciting! Life is good even with the twists and turns it throws at you. I'm not saying I'm not struggling cause I do a lot but today I just see the postives in life.